A kid at heart but not at hand.

I will never hold a child that is my own but let me hold yours and I’ll make my love known.

It’s permanent now. No kids for me. We made the decision to be Child Free. The thought of it is strange, it’s not something you can see; this transformation that has happened within me.

My tubes are all gone, my organs lay bare. There will never be a baby in there. A sigh of relief, a tear on the cheek. These types of decisions are not for the weak (despite what people may say). Years of negatives, years of what ifs, years of holding on to the edge of a cliff. The cliff of parenthood, the cliff of the unknown, the cliff of coming undone. Is it healthy, is it safe, is it something we can take? Do we want it? Can we do it? There is so much that goes into it.

We’ve chosen us in all of our glory. The parenting thing just isn’t our story. We love your kids, your babies and your teens- it’s just not something that is part of our dream.

I know we’ll get hate; we already do, we get lots of stupid questions too. It doesn’t faze us anymore, honestly your opinions are quite a bore. We’d rather spend time exploring and laughing than listening to your judgement and attacking.

So. We are kids at heart for forever more. Child free and happy and searching for more.